Weight lost this week: 3.2 lbs
Total Weight lost: 30.8 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 25.24%
I'm one-quarter of the way to my goal! THAT FEELS GOOD! Also I hit another milestone, 30 lbs lost!
Also, I leave for Dubai in 37 hours! I'm so excited for this trip, and the other members at my Weight Watchers meeting tonight were SO helpful with advice and tips on how to stay on program while I'm gone. I researched the hotel and found out that they have a (modest) 24-hour gym on site, which will be a big help. Also I'd love to do some beach walking, I heard it's GREAT for your ASS (my ass needs all the help it can get.)
It's been another emotional roller-coaster of a week, I'm pretty sure my hormones are involved. Even though I didn't go through a break-up, it really does feel like that. Unfortunately, HE doesn't see it that way (can't blame him) and we're having a really hard time communicating and connecting. I know things can't go back to the way they were before - I don't want that! But I was really hoping to salvage a friendship out of this. I just need to figure out what that means. It's redefining things on my end, and apparently I'm not great with boundaries! ;o) Shocker, I know!
I won't be able to weigh-in while I'm away, and honestly, I'm not even going to try. You never know how accurate other scales are and I don't want to give myself any chances to get unnecessarily discouraged. Hoping for a loss when I get back, but as long as I don't gain, I'm going to call it a win.
...a disgustingly honest glimpse into my world as I attempt to loose 122 pounds and reclaim my life.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
10%, bitches
Weight lost this week: 3.6 lbs
Total Weight lost: 27.6 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 22.62%
I did it! I hit my 10% goal!
(That means that since I began Weight Watchers I've lost 10% of my original body weight. It's a big deal in Weight Watcher Land...)
I got my free keychain...
I've never been so happy to get a keychain! It's on my purse, proudly displayed for the few who know what it means.
Yeah, I feel great. The heartbreak is... well, it's not really going away as much as it's loosing it's bite. I've gone almost a full week without crying, which has got to be some sort of record for me. It is a record for 2012! Work has been great, I've been very busy lately and a lot of great jobs are still rolling in... In general, all is good. Thank you, baby Jesus, because I was really loosing it there for a bit!
Now that I seem to be loosing at a pretty healthy and comfortable pace, I've decided to focus more on working out. It's become abundantly clear to me that I CANNOT RUN, at least not until I loose more weight, so I've been walking uphill on the treadmill instead. It's a much better workout for me, because when I tried running, I'd just have to stop due to the pain in my shins and feet. I can walk uphill (15% incline) for 20-30 minutes without stopping or slowing down, so I'm keeping my heart rate in that magic zone for much longer periods of time. Also been doing the weight machines, mostly my chest, shoulders and core. Really don't want to work on my crazy muscular legs, and I have light weights at home for arm work.
I'm also back to the same notch on my belt that I used SIX years ago. That feels great! Also, it feels like maybe I need a new belt because I've been wearing the same one, every day, for SIX YEARS. Yikes.
Also, leaving for Dubai in a week!
But that'll all have to wait for another post because I'm sooo tired and have a super early call time.
Total Weight lost: 27.6 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 22.62%
I did it! I hit my 10% goal!
(That means that since I began Weight Watchers I've lost 10% of my original body weight. It's a big deal in Weight Watcher Land...)
I got my free keychain...
I've never been so happy to get a keychain! It's on my purse, proudly displayed for the few who know what it means.
Yeah, I feel great. The heartbreak is... well, it's not really going away as much as it's loosing it's bite. I've gone almost a full week without crying, which has got to be some sort of record for me. It is a record for 2012! Work has been great, I've been very busy lately and a lot of great jobs are still rolling in... In general, all is good. Thank you, baby Jesus, because I was really loosing it there for a bit!
Now that I seem to be loosing at a pretty healthy and comfortable pace, I've decided to focus more on working out. It's become abundantly clear to me that I CANNOT RUN, at least not until I loose more weight, so I've been walking uphill on the treadmill instead. It's a much better workout for me, because when I tried running, I'd just have to stop due to the pain in my shins and feet. I can walk uphill (15% incline) for 20-30 minutes without stopping or slowing down, so I'm keeping my heart rate in that magic zone for much longer periods of time. Also been doing the weight machines, mostly my chest, shoulders and core. Really don't want to work on my crazy muscular legs, and I have light weights at home for arm work.
I'm also back to the same notch on my belt that I used SIX years ago. That feels great! Also, it feels like maybe I need a new belt because I've been wearing the same one, every day, for SIX YEARS. Yikes.
Also, leaving for Dubai in a week!
But that'll all have to wait for another post because I'm sooo tired and have a super early call time.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Things I want to do when I'm skinny
1) Hit on a hot guy
2) Buy something I can't afford because it looks so bangin' good on me
3) Skydive
4) Bungee-jump
5) Drink until 4am and pass out on a friend's couch
6) Wear a two-piece bikini in the ocean. Even if it's just once.
7) Run a marathon (or, at least, a 5K!)
8) Go mountain climbing
to be continued...
2) Buy something I can't afford because it looks so bangin' good on me
3) Skydive
4) Bungee-jump
5) Drink until 4am and pass out on a friend's couch
6) Wear a two-piece bikini in the ocean. Even if it's just once.
7) Run a marathon (or, at least, a 5K!)
8) Go mountain climbing
to be continued...
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
BACK ON TRACK
Weight lost this week: 7 lbs.
Total Weight lost: 24.0 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 19.67%
Now, there we go. I'm gonna go ahead and call last week's weigh-in a fluke. Because I doubt I lost SEVEN WHOLE POUNDS in one week!
Going to a Weight Watchers meeting on Valentine's Day has to be one of the most pathetic things I've ever done, but who the fuck cares? I thought I'd be the only one there, but there were a lot of others that made it out, including a few couples. As our leader put it, we decided to be our own Valentine's this year.
I feel great, honestly. I ran for the train today at a full clip (just made it) and I was barely out of breath. Two months ago I wouldn't have even bothered trying to make it, because I used to get winded half way up the stairs and I'd have to stop (it was so embarrassing, I used to pretend to be interested in something on my phone so it didn't look like I had to take a break halfway up the stairs). But now, I can run a full city block and bound up three flights of stairs with (relative) ease! Also, I physically notice a difference. My jeans are hanging off of me, I'm back to the same notch on my big-ass belt that I used five years ago, and I think I'm down a chin.
But I also recognize that I'm only at my best when I'm being challenged, and I've gotten so comfortable with my new eating habits that I'm ready to look for the next step. So, I'm going to start doing YOGA. There's a place near my gym that has a 'basics' (or, beginner) class on Saturday and Sunday mornings and, as long as I get some cashmoney in the bank this week, I'll be there! $15/class sounds steep but if I like it I'm gonna get a package that makes it a little more affordable.
Work has slowed down again, which is good for me right now. I don't loose weight as quickly when I'm working like a madman, and I needed a little break to regroup and to get back in fighting mode. I leave for Dubai in two weeks and I'd love to be on a good winning streak when I leave, because I'm pretty sure that keeping up with Weight Watchers for 12 days overseas is going to be tough.
I've got a job interview tomorrow, so keep your fingers crossed (I love the little moments where I pretend that anyone in the world reads this besides me.)
Total Weight lost: 24.0 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 19.67%
Now, there we go. I'm gonna go ahead and call last week's weigh-in a fluke. Because I doubt I lost SEVEN WHOLE POUNDS in one week!
Going to a Weight Watchers meeting on Valentine's Day has to be one of the most pathetic things I've ever done, but who the fuck cares? I thought I'd be the only one there, but there were a lot of others that made it out, including a few couples. As our leader put it, we decided to be our own Valentine's this year.
I feel great, honestly. I ran for the train today at a full clip (just made it) and I was barely out of breath. Two months ago I wouldn't have even bothered trying to make it, because I used to get winded half way up the stairs and I'd have to stop (it was so embarrassing, I used to pretend to be interested in something on my phone so it didn't look like I had to take a break halfway up the stairs). But now, I can run a full city block and bound up three flights of stairs with (relative) ease! Also, I physically notice a difference. My jeans are hanging off of me, I'm back to the same notch on my big-ass belt that I used five years ago, and I think I'm down a chin.
But I also recognize that I'm only at my best when I'm being challenged, and I've gotten so comfortable with my new eating habits that I'm ready to look for the next step. So, I'm going to start doing YOGA. There's a place near my gym that has a 'basics' (or, beginner) class on Saturday and Sunday mornings and, as long as I get some cashmoney in the bank this week, I'll be there! $15/class sounds steep but if I like it I'm gonna get a package that makes it a little more affordable.
Work has slowed down again, which is good for me right now. I don't loose weight as quickly when I'm working like a madman, and I needed a little break to regroup and to get back in fighting mode. I leave for Dubai in two weeks and I'd love to be on a good winning streak when I leave, because I'm pretty sure that keeping up with Weight Watchers for 12 days overseas is going to be tough.
I've got a job interview tomorrow, so keep your fingers crossed (I love the little moments where I pretend that anyone in the world reads this besides me.)
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Not my proudest post...
Weight lost this week: 0 lbs.
Total Weight lost: 17.0 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 13.93%
Yup. My weigh-in this week was EXACTLY the same as last week. No loss, no gain. I suppose that's a win in and of itself, NO GAIN. I'm trying to focus on that. NO GAIN.
Honestly, I sort of expected this. I've been working non-stop the last week and it's especially hard to stay on track when you don't see your home for 17 hours a day. Also, I treated myself this past weekend, from pizza, a taco and a margarita on Friday to Super Bowl party snacking on Sunday. As I say, I 'went dark' for a few days. The silver lining is that I still tracked all the crappy things, and I stayed under my weekly points allowance - but I normally don't use ANY of those points and this week I used ALL of them.
(To clarify, on top of the X number of points that I get daily - which is calculated based on weight, age, height, and whether or not you're breastfeeding - I also can technically use up to 49 additional bonus points each week. I usually only use my X number of points that I get DAILY and don't dip into the bonus points.)
Also, I didn't make it to the gym once. Just too busy during the day and then too damn tired at night. My only day off was Sunday, and if you knew what it took to get from my house to the gym using only public transportation on a Sunday, you'd skip it, too! Plus, ya know, I had to watch the GIANTS win the SUPER BOWL and all that...
So, I'm a little disappointed but I'm choosing to be proud of the fact that I can still cut loose without falling off the wagon entirely. This plan is getting harder (see my last post) but my determination is not waning. Time to step it up - I'm hoping for a BIG LOSS next week!
Total Weight lost: 17.0 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 13.93%
Yup. My weigh-in this week was EXACTLY the same as last week. No loss, no gain. I suppose that's a win in and of itself, NO GAIN. I'm trying to focus on that. NO GAIN.
Honestly, I sort of expected this. I've been working non-stop the last week and it's especially hard to stay on track when you don't see your home for 17 hours a day. Also, I treated myself this past weekend, from pizza, a taco and a margarita on Friday to Super Bowl party snacking on Sunday. As I say, I 'went dark' for a few days. The silver lining is that I still tracked all the crappy things, and I stayed under my weekly points allowance - but I normally don't use ANY of those points and this week I used ALL of them.
(To clarify, on top of the X number of points that I get daily - which is calculated based on weight, age, height, and whether or not you're breastfeeding - I also can technically use up to 49 additional bonus points each week. I usually only use my X number of points that I get DAILY and don't dip into the bonus points.)
Also, I didn't make it to the gym once. Just too busy during the day and then too damn tired at night. My only day off was Sunday, and if you knew what it took to get from my house to the gym using only public transportation on a Sunday, you'd skip it, too! Plus, ya know, I had to watch the GIANTS win the SUPER BOWL and all that...
So, I'm a little disappointed but I'm choosing to be proud of the fact that I can still cut loose without falling off the wagon entirely. This plan is getting harder (see my last post) but my determination is not waning. Time to step it up - I'm hoping for a BIG LOSS next week!
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Now Comes The Hard Part...
As I write this I am sitting in a photo studio on the west side, overlooking the entirely of the Manhattan skyline. Directly in front of me is the Empire State Building... I love this city, but sometimes it can really kick my ass.
I've compared NYC to an abusive husband before and I stand by that analogy. I love it, and I'm pretty sure it loves me, too. But every once in awhile it beats the s**t out of me. But I always come back for more. Lately has been no exception. As a freelancer, sometimes I go weeks without any work. It can be scary sometimes, downright terrifying, and usually I get to a point where I'm convinced that I'll never work again. And then, usually overnight, I have so much work that I can't even keep my head above water.
Now, the beginning the year is usually slow in my industry. Most anybody involved in fashion is pre-occupied with preparing for Fashion Week, and everyone else is taking their pretty little time recovering from the holidays. So I didn't panic too much when I went almost the entire month of January without any work. The SILVER LINING this year was that the 'month off' gave me plenty of time and space to really focus on my diet new lifestyle. And I've been doing really well. I averaged about 3-4 visits to the gym each week, I was diligent about doing my floor exercises and stretches at home nightly, planning my meals and preparing them ahead of time, grocery shopping and keeping the apartment stocked with good food, and all of the other wonderful habits that have kept me on the loosing path (in this case, that's the path to be on) for the last month.
BUT, when it rains it pours. And it's starting to rain. I've worked the last three days and I'm already starting to book out next week. To explain, I work in rental studios usually, so it's not as if I have an office. The catered food on set is always super tasty, but not in the least bit Weight-Watcher-friendly. I usually have to leave my apartment between 6:30-7am and I'm often not home before 10pm.
I try to prepare for these days, but sometimes I'm not even booked for a day until the night before (in rare circumstances, even the morning OF THE SHOOT.) Plus, my tiny Brooklyn apartment has an equally tiny refrigerator and freezer, so I can only prepare ahead for a few meals. Usually I just bring a small bag with me packed with emergency snacks, so that if there's nothing I can do with the catering, I can snack throughout the day. Also, making sure that I never get TOO hungry keeps me from hitting the items on that catering cart that I shouldn't be going anywhere near, like the vanilla cupcakes with chocolate buttercream frosting that always seem to pop up. For breakfast I can usually grab some fruit and maybe a small portion of eggs and for lunch there's almost always some kind of chicken. But you never know. I've been on shoots where the only option for lunch was sushi (I'm allergic to seafood) or shoots like TODAY, where there's no catering at all and everyone just orders from the diner down the street. The point is, I never know what I'm getting into.
Plus, there's the 'cool' factor. This is New York City, after all. I have to be careful about 'packing a lunch' because then I look like a geek. I wish that wasn't true, but it is, and it's a real concern - as soon as I stop being 'cool' then I'll be easily replaced by some skinny little hipster kid.
So, with work finally starting to pick up, I have a whole new set of problems to overcome. I guess I'm lucky that my first month was relatively problem-free, and with the success I've had so far I feel like I have enough momentum to get past this stuff.
I think that tonight I'm going to hit up Energy Kitchen on the way home, after three days of this I'm pretty sure I won't have enough energy to cook!
I've compared NYC to an abusive husband before and I stand by that analogy. I love it, and I'm pretty sure it loves me, too. But every once in awhile it beats the s**t out of me. But I always come back for more. Lately has been no exception. As a freelancer, sometimes I go weeks without any work. It can be scary sometimes, downright terrifying, and usually I get to a point where I'm convinced that I'll never work again. And then, usually overnight, I have so much work that I can't even keep my head above water.
Now, the beginning the year is usually slow in my industry. Most anybody involved in fashion is pre-occupied with preparing for Fashion Week, and everyone else is taking their pretty little time recovering from the holidays. So I didn't panic too much when I went almost the entire month of January without any work. The SILVER LINING this year was that the 'month off' gave me plenty of time and space to really focus on my diet new lifestyle. And I've been doing really well. I averaged about 3-4 visits to the gym each week, I was diligent about doing my floor exercises and stretches at home nightly, planning my meals and preparing them ahead of time, grocery shopping and keeping the apartment stocked with good food, and all of the other wonderful habits that have kept me on the loosing path (in this case, that's the path to be on) for the last month.
BUT, when it rains it pours. And it's starting to rain. I've worked the last three days and I'm already starting to book out next week. To explain, I work in rental studios usually, so it's not as if I have an office. The catered food on set is always super tasty, but not in the least bit Weight-Watcher-friendly. I usually have to leave my apartment between 6:30-7am and I'm often not home before 10pm.
I try to prepare for these days, but sometimes I'm not even booked for a day until the night before (in rare circumstances, even the morning OF THE SHOOT.) Plus, my tiny Brooklyn apartment has an equally tiny refrigerator and freezer, so I can only prepare ahead for a few meals. Usually I just bring a small bag with me packed with emergency snacks, so that if there's nothing I can do with the catering, I can snack throughout the day. Also, making sure that I never get TOO hungry keeps me from hitting the items on that catering cart that I shouldn't be going anywhere near, like the vanilla cupcakes with chocolate buttercream frosting that always seem to pop up. For breakfast I can usually grab some fruit and maybe a small portion of eggs and for lunch there's almost always some kind of chicken. But you never know. I've been on shoots where the only option for lunch was sushi (I'm allergic to seafood) or shoots like TODAY, where there's no catering at all and everyone just orders from the diner down the street. The point is, I never know what I'm getting into.
Plus, there's the 'cool' factor. This is New York City, after all. I have to be careful about 'packing a lunch' because then I look like a geek. I wish that wasn't true, but it is, and it's a real concern - as soon as I stop being 'cool' then I'll be easily replaced by some skinny little hipster kid.
So, with work finally starting to pick up, I have a whole new set of problems to overcome. I guess I'm lucky that my first month was relatively problem-free, and with the success I've had so far I feel like I have enough momentum to get past this stuff.
I think that tonight I'm going to hit up Energy Kitchen on the way home, after three days of this I'm pretty sure I won't have enough energy to cook!
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
WEIGH-IN #4
Weight lost this week: 3.6 lbs
Total Weight lost: 17.0 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 13.93%
TODAY I CELEBRATED MY 5% GOAL! That means that as of today's weigh-in, I have lost (at least) 5% of my starting weight. I'm officially 19/20ths of the person I was when I started this blog.
Another great weigh-in day! I've got plenty to update you on, but alas, my celebratory CHIPOTLE Burrito Bowl (I counted all the points) has me feeling vurrrrry lazy and unmotivated.
More to come, suckas.
Total Weight lost: 17.0 lbs
Percentage of 122 lbs lost: 13.93%
TODAY I CELEBRATED MY 5% GOAL! That means that as of today's weigh-in, I have lost (at least) 5% of my starting weight. I'm officially 19/20ths of the person I was when I started this blog.
Another great weigh-in day! I've got plenty to update you on, but alas, my celebratory CHIPOTLE Burrito Bowl (I counted all the points) has me feeling vurrrrry lazy and unmotivated.
More to come, suckas.
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